This past weekend I was at my best friends wedding {fun post about that later this week after I go through pictures} and it was pretty hard seeing her tie the knot with the person she loves more than anything, while mine couldn't be there. Not to mention, I got to watch on the sideline for every couple song and watch as people were all "lovey-dovey." It's just hard to get through, sigh.
Plus, I have had a few rough patches with my emotions these past few months. Yeah, it's normal for the first deployment, and the one after that, and so on and so forth. So, instead of sitting in this happy/stressed/depressed roller coaster I decided to take action and get myself figured out. This will also help when the deployment is over so I can help my husband with the true support he needs.
As for the phone call to the counseling services department, it went well. The woman on the phone was very nice, helpful, and forgiving when I had to catch my breath every now and then to pull up some more courage. We were also lucky enough to get me connected to a counselor, 5 miles away from my home this week.
I am going to be completely honest, I was keeping my fingers crossed that it wouldn't happen so quickly. Lame, yes, but it is a scary thing, finally getting the courage to ask for help then ~POOF~ you have it a few days later. The woman I am now going to start this lovely journey with sounded nice on the phone, but who knows. It's a stranger I get to go and talk to for an hour/hour-and-a-half about my life, I can't even talk to my bffs about a lot of this stuff and now I have to open up to a complete stranger.
While it does scare me to do this, I made the plunge to become happy again and sort my stuff out to make the life for me and my soldier better than when we started this whole thing. I will let you know how this lovely journey unfolds but I do think it's an amazing support we have as military families. We just all have to be brave enough to use it when we need too.
I think that's great that you took the active approach to work on yourself and making sure you are happy and able to help your husband when he returns. A lot of people don't have the courage to do this. Good luck with it and I hope it helps!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I am a little nervous because you never know what will come up. It's just nice to have another form of outlet and I hope it helps too.
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