I don't mean to sound, I don't know, jerkish with this post but with this whole deployment thing and people asking me "How I am"...I have gotten to the point where I am "over it."
Yes, emotionally it is hard, but that first two months of sadness and wondering how I am going to get through all of this is now gone and I have hit "survival mode" phase.
I am going through my deployment life realizing that I need to focus on the things I can control and realize I am not alone in this, have a support system, and remember that technology has made deployments so much easier, I get to hear his voice and even see him sometimes.
Apparently, even with me finding my deployment skin and sharing my thoughts people are still overly concerned and don't {really} believe me when I say I am doing ok. I don't know how to get that message through their heads. From my mother in law to friends to co-workers, they all ask me every week how I am doing and if I'm ok.
...not going to lie, my response is about to be "I was ok until you asked me this for the 400th million time"...
Yes, over reaction, and I need to realize that the people around me and in my life are going through this too in a way and are just trying to figure out how to support me. But I have hit that wall and just have to hope that they will get to a good point with all of this as well.
So for all of you out there I am doing well and if I need something/you, I will let you know and thank you for asking how I am.
I hear that!
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